quote for the minute...

Not everything that counts can be counted,

& not everything that can be counted counts.

i love you

ppls...


im a huge rnb fan but i can listen to anything and appreciate all sorts of music...realised ive put on heaps of random stuff....beutifully random songs...but yehh....


a song imma loving atm...


i dunno what it is BUT...i dunno what you do BUT...


I LOVE YOU...I LOVE YOU...I LOVE YOU




xo
bananaface

hauntingly beautiful

The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious.

It is the source of all true art and science. 

- Albert Einstein

Nothing can be beautiful which is not true.

- John Ruskin

Audrey Kawasaki is absolutely amazing...i am at a lost for words...for once...*beams*

http://www.audrey-kawasaki.com/

put a spell on me...

xo Anna

i cant sleep...cuz i suck...LOL

Insomnia is a gross feeder. 

It will nourish itself on any kind of thinking,

including thinking about not thinking. 

-Clifton Fadiman

The worst thing in the world is to try to sleep and not to. 

-F. Scott Fitzgerald

O bed! O bed! delicious bed!
That heaven upon earth to the weary head.
~Thomas Hood, Miss Kilmansegg - Her Dream

Dreams are answers to questions

we haven't yet figured out how to ask

The best reason for having dreams

is that in dreams no reasons are necessary. 

-Ashleigh Brilliant

I hate it when I cant sleep...it usually means im going to be dreaming some weird shit...you dont want to know....hahahaha....and im going to wake up late...i dont mind the sleep in so much...but im more of a morning person...i like getting up early...getting use of the whole day...

i love my morning air...the freshness...the coldness of it...i love watching the sunrise...i was wanting to go to the beach....prolly go tomorrow...

see there is something about the water...the sound it makes...the blueness....the deepness of it...the feel of the sand underneath your feet or between your fingertips...hmmmm

imma watching A Love Song for Bobby Long...


don't ask me why...its just on the tv...interesting characters...smoking, drinking, chilling, beautiful disasters....such charming characters...beautiful songs...so soft...

i cant believe how crazy awesome this movie actually is...what their saying...its crazy...its beautiful...so poetic...

Bobby Long: Lawson is not in love with you.
Georgianna: Bobby, I don't think thats any of your damn business.
Bobby Long: I've seen him with a woman that he can't get enough of. A woman that's crawled into every molecule of his being. That consumed his every thought and turned him into a creature of devotion and obsession. I have the scars of that love on my face, have ya told her about that? Have you told her about the difference between true love and a warm bed to pass the time away?
Lawson Pines: Oh cool it man. Don't go after her, I never said I was going anywhere.
Bobby Long: I only speak the truth. The woman deserves to know the truth. And you, you're free to do as you please.
Lawson Pines: Am I, really? Finally free huh?
Bobby Long: I wanna say something on this occasion where I celebrate my love and frienships with one another. Friend, my enemy, I call you out. You, you, you there with a bad thorn in your side. You there, my friend, with a winning air. Who pawned the lie on me when he looked brassly at my shyest secret. With my whole heart under your hammer. That though I loved him for his faults as much as for his good. My friend were an enemy upon stilts with his head in a cunning cloud.
Lawson Pines: Bravo, man. Now why dont you come out and fucking say what you really mean. Does every word out of your mouth have to be in character? Or is that the idea? Just to be anyone but who you really are. You want to tell me that your disappointed in me? Cause maybe im disappointed in you. You know I never asked to write your damn book. Your redemption and my penance, right? Havent I paid? Nine fucking years. I'm sorry. I am sorry all right. I am so fucking sorry.
Bobby Long: It's Dylan Thomas. That's an easy one.

......................

Lawson Pines: Some people reach a place in time where they've gone as far as they can. A place where wives and jobs collide with desire. That which is unknowable and those who remain out of sight. See what it is invisible and you will see what to write. That's how Bobby used to put it. It was the invisible people he wanted to live with. The ones that we walk past everday, the ones we sometimes become. The ones in books who live only in someones mind's eye. He was a man who was destined to go through life and not around it. A man who was sure the shortest path to Heaven was straight through Hell. But the truth of his handicap lay only in a mind both exalted and crippled by too many stories and the path he chose to become one. Bobby Long's tragic flaw was his romance with all that he saw. And I guess if people want to believe in some form of justice, then Bobby Long got his for a song.

just interesting to see how relationships are on screen...showing the craziness of it...its quite interesting...heart renchingly intriguing...quite a moving movie...so damn deep...

...i love this movie...im going to buy it...love the music...love the characters...

funny how i was so not interested in it in the beginning and then it just grew on me...damn it...now i just have to finish watching it...and its nearly 2am...i really should go to sleep....but i wont...haha...

Lawson is dead sexy...hahaha...YUM...nearly as sexy as Pursy Will...but no ones as hot as her!! LOL

Yesterday i had a dream, that i could fly....
 xo
bananerrrrrrrr



all i want for christmas...

Great little one! Whose all-embracing birth
Lifts Earth to Heaven, stoops Heaven to Earth.

-Richard Crashaw

May you have the gladness of Christmas which is hope;
The spirit of Christmas which is peace;
The heart of Christmas which is love.
~Ada V. Hendricks

I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!

Christmas to me...

*in no particular order

music

thank yous

christmas tree

smiles

love

cooking

tanning

deep and meaningfuls

SMS msgs

gratitude

mass

tinsel

kareoke

family

ice cream

fun

wrapping paper

kindness

wishes

friends

santa claus

singing

love

laughter

randomness

hang over

sharing

eating

favourites

christmas lights

jokes

beer

wine

giving

christmas carols

mountains of food

presents

dancing

sleeping in

caring

celebrating christs' birth

star gazing

photos

review

blessings

christmas cards

BBQ

beach

inspiration

prayers

deserts

reading

lazing around

hugs

late nights

cleaning

sleep overs

church

long walks

chocolate

kisses

love

 and so much more!!!

Wishing you all a very Merry Christmas...

a day filled with laughter, joy and LOVE LOVE LOVE!! 

thats' spirit resonates with you throughout the year!!

one of my all time favourite christmas songs...hehehe!!!

LOVE LOTS!!!

MWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Anna

PHOTOS....moments captured!!

holey freakin moley?? did neone...other than ria and i...witness the moon yesterday with the scattered clouds everywhere!!! it was GOBSMACKINGLY BEAUTIFUL!!! i hope you saw it!!!

it was just one of those moments that made me realise...I really need to get me a AWESOMELY INSANE camera....should i get an SLR???

once i do...it will be endless photos from here on end!! YAY!

xo

ANNAFACE

once upon a time...

A girl met a boy…

She never met someone so amazing.

And friends they became.

And friends it was.

For friends was what they were meant to be.

Sharing secrets and laughter. Joy and fears.

Never expecting that One day she would fall.

And fall she did. Though control it she did try.

The timing wasn’t right.

Giving countless reasons, wondering why?

The internal turmoil was a hopeless fight.

It must have only been lust. But she knew better.

She knew he wasn’t perfect.

And his faults she did see.

But she knew he was worth it.

And hope she did. Till hope no more.

She missed him. Until she didn’t.

Until one day he came back.

But what he offered, wasn’t what she wanted.

Though she knew that what he offered, was all that he could offer.

She isn’t perfect. With her many faults, that she was sure he could see.

But decide, she had to.

It was all or nothing.

And nothing it was.

So nothing it had to be.

-annainks

the heavy beats...the soft sweet melodies...

"Music gives a soul to the universe, 
wings to the mind, 
flight to the imagination, 
and life to everything." 
~ Plato ~

Music expresses that which cannot be said
and on which it is impossible to be silent.
~Victor Hugo

Honestly ppl i do not know what i would do if music did not exist!!! it cheers me up...makes me reminisce...will energise me in the mornings...all sorts of music...from rock...to house...to rnb...ive even been listening to the classics...i dunno if this is just me or not...but when things...good or bad...is happening in your life...i tend to not only listen to more music....and dance hella more....but i pay attention to the lyrics...ill listen to the mood that i want to be in...at times its SO SO true...I DONT NEED NO LOVE!!! ALL I NEED IS A DJ!!! hehe...

i swear every sunday morning...i wake up to either celion dion, michael jackson, ABBA, bee jees or the eagles or something random like that...thank goodness they kinda like Rob Thomas...so i get abit o him every now and then....LIKE BLASTING!!! usually i would have been partying so hard or chilling and not sleeping as much as i should off....that i cant or wont move or be bothered to ask my parentals to put it down...GOSH i heart them!!! it's just become part of my life...SUNDAY = wake up to random classic music LOL

i think my love for music came from my dad...because he will randomly put on some music....crazy CRAZZYYYY LOUD!!! and ill see him dancing randomly...haha...ppl my dad can't dance...but at least he trys...

and my love for dancing came from my mum...she got rhythm ppls!!! she know how to get her groove on LOL

my parentals generation upon thinking about it...there music is so much more....i dunno deeper...our generation...is so whack! full about biatches...hoes...butts..putting so and so....where and where...or bumping and grinding...you gotta appreciate their kinda thing...

i love the song below....reminds me of someone!!! CLASSIC enjoy xo

newhos....another weekend...mischief to be made!!

hehe xo

ann ann

an expert in the making

hey ppls

have been CRAZY BUSY with work...can not wait till the 23rd December....THE LAST WORKING DAY OF THE YEAR!!!!will have heaps of leave soon....so will shall be bombarded with masses of blogs from me...YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED...in the very near future!!! Now have to right up all these christmas cards and deliver presents...it is fairly time consuming...but still alot O fun!!!

so ppls...i have been practicing hoolahooping...and now im all pro at it LOL

do have to admit i do look abit retarded at times so still refining those skills...hehe....as they say practice makes perfect *wink*wink*knudge*knduge* LOL

fun n games....fun n games!!!

xo
Anna

iphone autocorrect!! freakin HILIARIOUS!!!

hey ppls...

this is TOO EFFING FUNNY!!!

all images taken from...

http://damnyouautocorrect.com

i hope it puts a smile on your dial!!

xo
Annner

...

You can close your eyes 

to things you don't want to see...

You can't close your heart 

to things you don't want to feel

i have always been one that has lots of control over my thoughts and emotions and that sort of thing...i guess it comes with the job...the whole positive thinking thing...actually i think ive always been like that...but doing what i do...has helped me refine that....focus on results...long term perspective...blah blah blah...i guess you would say that i am quite future orientated...and always evaluate situations prior to action....quite analytical...don't know if thats a good thing...

with the matters of the heart...that is something i find very hard to control...that i do try very hard to control...but i just can't which really really really annoys me....lol....you feel what you feel about people...falling for someone is exactly that...you fall...you have no control...it just happens there is no effort on your part...it just is...even when you don't want to...even when you know you shouldn't....even when your trying not to...

when i know im falling for someone and i dont want to...i normally dont ever want to....i just deny it...until im blue in the face...i will do everything i can possibilily do...to not feel that way...weather it be constantly telling myself that its nothing...or better cut all ties...no talk...no nothing...until these feelings that make me so uncomfortable go away...

the only thing wrong with this...though usually it is quite effective....is when the feelings...because you actually do have strong feelings for a person....and you think its gone...but then when this person appears again...its 10 times worse then what it was originally....these feelings they just come back with vengeance...its so not even funny!!! 

Absence is to love as wind is to fire;

it extinguishes the small and kindles the great

had to write about this for watever reason...not because im experiencing it now...thank freaking goodness!!! But recent events has made me think about how this crap has happened...its happened to everyone right??? its a bitch aye??? LOL


again...


DAMN YOU FEELINGS!!!!


one thing though...its kinda weird not knowing whats going to happen next...exciting even...hmmmm whatever...its going to be freakin GREAT!!! i thinks...i hopes...ill make sure...i promise!!!


ciao ciao xo
inkette

weird...random...

upon hearing his voice...kinda forgot about mark...which was just so completely fucked up...on so many different levels...lol...

i realised i dont know myself at all sometimes..

upon talking to him COMPLETELY different story!!! which just suprised me even more!!!

DAMN IT life is so weird and random...hahahahaha i find myself so funny!!!

will have to explain latersssssssssss

HAHAHA!!!

*kisses*
annnerrrrr!!!

hmmmm too school for cool....

Do the thing you fear...and the death of fear is certain

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

 

i have been strongly contemplating going back to study...part time off course...i wouldnt give up my job...because im so damn in love with it...i am abit scared though because i haven't studied for awhile...for ages....maybe a decade....lol....and i dont exactly need it for what i am doing....don't get me wrong...i love love love my books...and can read read read about my passions...but super dooper scared of going back...especially with the course i want to do...

 

Atm im thinking of what i would have to give up...the amount of sacrifice....no more late nights having coffees staying up till wee hours of the night...i would really have to ease myself back into it...i would have to create balance...im preety shit at that....lol....i would have to do presentations...which i do now...but not so much...the thing i do look forward to is the amount of networking i would have to do...meeting random people from all works of life...it would be so interesting to get different perspectives on businesses...what the best practices are...how to create crazy awesome business structures...would come in very handy in the not too distant future...

 

i really really really want to do it...and it is business...so I am really passionate about it...but i guess it is just fear that is holding me back...it's weird how fear...even though its not necessarily a true perspective on things...can paralyse you...normally i would just go for it and not give a flying shit...but i guess i just dont want to fail...me so scared!!!  And the people i would be studying with would be much more experienced...crazy experienced...i kind of question my ability...can i handle it? i sure hope so...i'm preety sure if someone else can do it...so can i......ppls i would be throwing myself into the deep end with this one....but luckily enough i do have the support of work...and my work collegues...so i can...i guess refer to their knowledge their experience...

 

i do love learning new things...getting new perspectives...and business is definately something i want to understand..

 

Damn it!! I LOVE BUSINESS...and i feel as though it would be more than worthwhile...the benefits...the endless opportunities...

 

wish me luck cuz im going to need it!!

 

hopefully ill grow some balls soon and just do it!!!

 

xo

anna

beauty painted

Tell them dear, that if eyes were made for seeing,
Then beauty is its own excuse for being
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Hey ppls...

I went to an exhibition the other day...met Melissa beautiful and talented girl...

images taken from http://www.melissasharplin.com/



beauty painted...

xo

bananaink

impact

n.

1. The striking of one body against another; collision. See Synonyms at collision.

2. The force or impetus transmitted by a collision.

3. The effect or impression of one thing on another: still gauging the impact of automation on the lives of factory workers.

4. The power of making a strong, immediate impression: a speech that lacked impact.

today i tried to hoolahop...with this small ass hoolahop thingy ma bob...n i'll tell you know ppl...i was hopeless...hahaha...i got semi sweaty after about 5 mins...lol...hmmmm not a good sign...

today i also danced in the rain....abit random...but i realised i should do these kinda things more often...it was nice...comptemplating on how great it is just to be...im breathing...im healthy....blessed to have such awesome family and friends...i started thinking about how different ppl have effected my life in some shape or form...

also played bingo hahahaha hadnt done that in years...HAHA!! random!!!

Isn't it funny how different ppl impact onyour life...it can be as simple as a smile...an interesting conversation...witnessing something funny take place..such as someone tripping or something...hahaha...(i know kinda slack but it happens to everyone and you gotta  just laugh right?)i do believe that ppl come into your life for a reason...sometimes you dont know the reason that they you have met them until later on...but still you learn from everything...

Some people are there for a short while....while others are there forever...i guess it's based on you as to wheather or not that is the case. Some people you just can't let go off...for whatever reason...

When people actually make a deep impact on your life...wheather it be good or bad...it happens to teach you something? i thinks...come to think about it the worst relationships be it friendship/lover/family/co-worker whatever you always learn how to handle that situation better in the future...

ok with mark the guy i was extremely infatuated with...he taught me to be straight up and to the point...be random...well more random than i am now...be open to experiences...i had always been one of those ppl who were more words than action...hahaha...

ok a had a economics teacher in highschool...who knew i didnt study...but would still kick ass in exams...mainly because i just loved the subject...and was naturally inclined to business...he was always so encourgaging...he just believed in me...and to this day i still remember...

hmmm my best friend maria...i will love her always...she is shining light in my life...she just gets me...and listens to my shit...i swear she doesn't even realise how beautiful she is...

i had a meeting with scheduled to meet ben...you know the sexy guy...but instead i ended up meeting with this other...equally as sexy..mike...who completely made my day...just by hearing about his adventures and all round awesomeness!! i swear english accents...so melt worthy!!! LOL

i met this random guy at the club last night...and it was different....the norm would be that you know the guy would try and bump and grind with you (i have issues with personal space hahaha) he completely started a mad conversation on the dance floor...this guy had balls!! he gave me some interesting tips about dating...because he was a executive match maker!!! LOL i didnt even know that that was a real job hahahaha...he was quite cute...but no he said that guys dont like hearing that shit...apparently guys like to be told their BAD ASS!!! hahahaha...he was very smooth...handed me his business card and told me to call him...apparently there is a 3 day rule?? that i dont know shit about because i have been outta the game for so freaking long...upon getting the card...i said arn't you meant to call me? To which he said that we live in the modern world love...you call me first and ill do the rest after...hmmmm i dunno ill think about calling LOL he was fun!! interesting and entertaining...and ballsy so 10 points for him!!!

my mum and dad...who have stuck through my rebellious years...who  worry...who care...who love me for me!!!

and the firemen with the gorgeous smile!!! just cute!! actually JUST BAD ASS hahaha

and to the people who laughed at me when i tripped because of my stupidity for wearing these massive heels...spanking hot btw...but still stoopid...and unappropriate...im glad i made them laugh...cause i sure would of!! LOL

I feel that people always remember ppl not for their words or their actions...but for how they made you feel...

so im going to endeavour to be nicer to ppl...hehe

newho imma off...



xo
banana

...the law of attraction...

Watch your thoughts, for they become your words.

Watch your words, for they become your actions.

Watch your actions, for they become your habits.

Watch your habits, for they become your character.

Watch your character. For it becomes your destiny.

recently i got dared to pick up a fireman....i dont normally like to pick up men...hmmm if they like me they should work for me...i thinks....but a dare is a dare so why not??? so it was switched on...

i must explain normally on thursdays im not in the office...im usually out and about...winning clients over...negotiating....doing my THANG!!! but for watever reason i had to much paperwork to do....so stay in i did...

I had just come from the warehouse, to pick up a silk arrangement to install into one of my clients premises...handpicked it...i did...for a personal touch...and upon walking into the office...I could smell this really weird smell....something super stinky and weird...i was thinking...this arrangement stinks...how can it stink be so weird smelling...when it's freakin brand spanking new??? how can i give this stinky weird smelling arrangement to my client???? what the hell...but this smell just kept getting stronger and stronger....it started to give me a headache!!!

I look at the other section of the office and they all were getting up to leave...something was burning...and we just had to get out!!!

I for one was not interested in passing out due to this stinky weird smelling fumes...I had to basically pull our guys off their seats because of all the work we had to do...such workaholics...LOL...talk about dedmication!!! the building was possiblily on fire but NO they just wouldnt stop!!! LOL GO TEAM!!!!

SUSPECTED FIRE = EVACUATION = FIREMAN

The girls from office...such sexy mamas...were not really concerned as to wheather or not there was an actual fire but more so how hot the firemen were...they so funnAy they even took photos...hehe

and one fireman was particularly good looking...and im pretty sure he was used to the attention LOL...to say the least...at least we got a smile out of him...a damn cute smile!! hahahaha prolly comes with the job...man if i could tell you all the fucked up lame ass jokes ive got about fireman! u would ROFL LOL

Anyway this whole evacutation did give us some excitement for the day!! LOL it's funny how just abit of eyecandy doesn't do no harm!!!

it ended up being a power fault or some shit!!! ended up getting an electrician in...LOL...GO THE TRADIES!!! hahahaha so sexy

the law of attraction states "like attracts like" im not sure but i thought it also had something to do with...whatever you think about most happens...kinda thing?? not to sure.....hmmmm for whatever reason i think my "law of attraction" thing is on freakin OVERDRIVE!!! it's just not even about the fireman fireman everywhere!!! it's all this other shit too....haha

i think in terms of what im sending out into the universe...im sending mixed messages...i have no idea what the fuck i want really...but in slowly figuring it out...hahaha..hmmm i would give you examples but you know...a tad personal...hahaha....but i figured that once ive figured it out...it'll just come!! LOL

Let's freaking hope so...hey ppls???

newhos

imma outta here

Annabanana

MANLY MEN!!!

Beauty is not caused. It is.

just wanted to let you know the low down....


for all the single girls out there....in the vicinity of SYDNEY...you really must check out manly!!! MANLY MEN ARE DAMN MANLYYYYYYY!! LOL


for whatever reason...there is just an endless amount of DAMN DAMN DAMN SEXY guys there...this self perpetuating stream of ridiculously good looking men....not boys...but men.....everywhere you freakin turn...its just awesome eyecandy!!! feel like such a pervert!!! LOL


looking not even tempted to touch though...lol




cheerios
aNNaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

to do...

i heart this...

I for one...have these 3 things on mind...as definitely MUST do...

Love...

completely and utterly your friends, family and significant other...with the good the bad and the ugly...accepting, forgiving and understanding...

Dream...

big dreams..for when you reach for the moon you land among the stars

Be Free...

from worry...i guess just be happy!

love you long time xo

Anna

dead sexy mark! hahaha

hmmmm really feel as though i should write about him...mainly just to get it out of my system...hopefully for good...

There is alot of things I would like to say to him...but im not going to...because i guess...it's a matter of pride...a matter of fear...a matter of letting bigones be bigones...a matter of if its meant to be....its meant to freakin be!!! A matter of not wanting a guy to want you because you want him..and also because these feelings...the feelings i have for him....i wasnt meant to have in the first place...so i stuffed up big time...i couldnt help it...DAMN YOU FEELINGS!!! DAMN YOU!!! y does he have to be dead sexy whhhhhhhhhhhhyyyyyyyyyy!!!! LOL and besides i know that one day when i read this...i will just laugh at how effing stoopid i was for feeling this shit in the first place!!! Thank goodness i have the ability to laugh at oneself downpat!! HAHA!!

Holey moley...im just hoping that in writing this...it is somehow thereaputic...because right now i have such mixed emotions...and to be honest with you....im just hoping against all hope that in writing this...it helps even just a tad to soothe this pain i feel...hmmm im sad that it has to end....but happy that it freakin happened....see the way i think atm is.....if i had let this continue...could you even imagine how more deeper shit id be in...deeper than i am now...how retarded would that freakin be!! So best to cut your loses...i thinks!!! hahaha...funnily enough i haven't cried about it...not really expecting too...thought maybe i would...but i didnt....maybe because this is, at best...what i had prepared myself for...

If i could say something to him...it would go something like this...

Thank you for everything...you do not understand how you have made such a significant impact on my life...you have actually showed me that there are guys out there that are actually men and arnt little boys (i am not taking a digg at any past bfs LOL they cool...we cool!!)...you have given me hope...and all i needed was hope....your character...i am absolutely amazed by...you are kind, generous, caring, smart and loyal...personality is effing crazy funny and blunt....its just great....and more than what i could ask for in a guy...and whoever you end up with would be so damn lucky!!! (SO SO SO DAMN LUCKY)  Thank you for making me feel special...(THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!) i haven't felt that for awhile...I could only wish you every success and every happiness...(TRULY!!)

I will miss you for awhile...until i dont...(isnt that true about all things...)

that would be the main freakin jist of it!! But you know WHATEVER!!!

sometimes you forget...just to remember again... 

i really like him...this guy...and i didnt have the balls to tell him...but i never do...EVER...the most i could say was that i missed him...isnt that indication enough?? I know that its not really but at this time that is the best i could do...To be honest i think it was...that is such a big deal coming from me...but i guess he didnt know me well enough to actually know that...and i just have to accept that he didnt feel the same way!!! How much does that suck...i dont really know what i want neway (that is where my self defence mechanism is kicking in) SO HA!!! LOL HMMMM hopefully ill get over the whole thing soooon...plzzz plzz plzzzzz...i doubt we'd ever be friends...but it would be nice...LOL

you know what annoyed me i would go on dates...and i would think about how much more awesome mark is to the guys that im actually dating...how effing shit is that...when i know that this wasnt going to go anywhere anyway!! (i have always been one to want what i cant have....hmmmm so not good!!!) hahahah BUT A HOT SHIT BITCH AT THAT!! LOL (again its the self defence mechanism jolting into place...dont mind me...but i can be abit obnoxious sometimes...LOL)

i didnt really really want to mention him before because you know...i was in mad denial about my feelings for him...always in denial....forever in denial...i hate that about myself...i find it so hard to face what i really trully feel about a guy...it takes me ages to acknowledge feelings...(another self defence thing) but now since this is all done and dusted i might as freaking well...hahaha...what is the harm in it?? no harm??

i dont even think he knows my last name LOL

I am not one to put my emotions on the line...cuz im such a big pansy!!!! and because DENIAL IS SUCH A BITCH!!! But the thing is...i do understand that with this shit you kinda have to...but i couldnt in the situation...MY BAD!! for next time...i promise....

I do hang on to the hope that one day....a person whoever that person is.....MUST BE SO DAMN CRAZY FREAKIN AWESOME!! LOL a comforting thought indeedy!!

Newhos...todaLOO!!! so glad to get that off my chest!!!

again i have to say....DAMN YOU FEELINGSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

DAMN YOU!!!

this did help...just a tad!!!

ciao ciao lovelies

annainks

ring!!!!

A friend is

someone who knows the song in your heart

and can sing it back to you...

when you have forgotten the words...

okie dokies ppls....as promised my blog about ring!!!

ring is not only beautiful on the outside but damn beautiful on the inside!!! She is a leo...an effing lioness...who will protect those she loves with an absolute determination and passion...she is bossy...and has this way of making ppl do whatever the fuck it is she wants...hahahhaahah she knows this is true hahahahahha she has all these funny stories...that just crack me up...its endless the amount of times these weird n wonderful things happen to happen to her...hahahaha....if i could choose an older sister...it would be her!!!

the other day...i went to pick her up...and she came into the car all upset...i had thought that maybe she had had a fight with her parents or with her hubby....or something super serious had happened...but no...i was completely wrong LOL

me myself and i: "whats wrong?" all worried and shit

ring: "there should be fresh cooking everytime i come home" all pissed off!!! hahahahahaah

and i thought i got grumpy when i was hungry!!! hahahaaha!! it was so cute...she was so pissed off because there wasnt nething but leftovers left to eat....and the one thing she wanted to eat after having heated it up in the microwave she ended up dropping all over the floor and having to clean it up instead of eating it!!! LOL such a cutie...i brang her to our local hang out to eat...quick stat!!! LOL

In terms of advice....she is wise beyond her years...and has such a beautiful vulnerability...i am not afraid to tell her what is really going on...she will tell me exactly how it is...her intentions are always good...and she is one of the rare few that sees through me...when im putting on one of my facades...you know...when im showing the world that im super duper happy...but really im not...she just knows...she is ring...!!! LOVE HER!!!

i will eventually write about all my BOOTIFUL friends...all beautiful in different ways...my close friends...are the family i choose...hehehe...they fill my life with so much laughter, support, pull my head out of the clouds, are shoulders to cry on...and give me tissues to wipe away tears!!! i truly am blessed...

much love

bananainks

la la la LOVE....

anyone can catch your eye...

but it takes someone special to capture your heart

Love is an ever so complex yet at times very simple thing. I for one am guilty for judging people at first glance...looking at facial features, persons height, weight, style, age, education not so much, financial situation kinda but not really...looking at the more superficial side of things at first...acknowledging that yes...they are attractive because of so and so...or NOPE i wouldnt go there because of so and so...

i for one am also guilty for and fallen victim to getting so damned attached because this person is so freakin cool and so fun to be with...may not be the best looking...but suddenly is like the effing most cutest thing EVER....because for what ever reason their personality and character and what they stand for seems to at that moment in time...outshine everybody else...LOL...

I HAVE TO MENTION....i met the most sexiest guy the other day!! HOLY EFFING MOLEY!!! he was so effing drool worthy...ok get this...he was from the uk...so MAD ENGLISH ACCENT...and is half english and half argentinian..(i dunno if i spelt that right...but tough tittys!!! LOL)...he was tall....and being a personal trainer...im preety sure he was DAMN fit...and the cutest thing...well my most favourite thing about him was his cheery face...he just looked like one of those people that doesn't let shit get him down....newhos so during the appointment...this is so off the topic...but i dont give a shit...we just clicked...we talked about me being filo...about his world travels...about our strict roman catholic backgrounds....cant be arsed going into anymore details...but he knew how to freakin speak spanish....so hes got this MAD ENGLISH ACCENT and knows how to SPEAK FREAKING SPANISH FLUENTLY...i am so throughly IMPRESSED...can neone get NE FREAKING HOTTER!!! n he was trying to teach me how to say something but i forgot what it was already hahaha...i am considering on asking him on a date...which ive never really done before...or at least giving him another opportunity to ask me on one HAHAHAHAHA!! yes i am a gronk and i know it...fuck if he doesnt ask...its just not meant to be...but then again if its meant to be its up to me lol why did he have to be so damn cute....why did he have to be such a sweetie....im thinking maybe he just clicks with everyone...you know...him being so damn sexy...who knows...but i am curious....i shall update you on this later...should there be any sort of progress made...hahahahah.....newhos how off the topic was that!!! LOL but i had to mention it!!! as i said...COMPLETELY FREAKIN DROOL WORTHY!!!! he definately caught my eye!!! hahahaha

newhos back to the topic...you get sucked in to seeing all their awesomeness that you just dont mind their faults...it just doesnt bother you....water on a ducks back they say...I for one when i get all loved up like that...i completely am blinded by it...i dont see ne other guys at all...its like no one compares to that person...fuck how annoying is that!! hmmmmmm LOL

LOVING SOMEONE is complicated because everyone experiences love in a different way, shape or form and that one person experience of being loved or showing love maybe completely different to that of their partners or to another person...its all a matter of perspective i guess...I guess its also a matter of communication...people show and feel love through different things...when you do find that special someone...i guess its a matter of understanding what love is to them...how they feel loved...and how you can show them your love the way they feel it...i shall give you one example of how i feel love...

my close close closest of friends...that i completely love to itty bitty pieces...i dont have to see them all the time..i still feel love for them even if i hadnt seen them for ages...for me it is about the quality of that time that we spend together...catching up...sharing secrets...giving and getting much needed advice or support...laughing till we cry...staying up till wee hours of the night....because time just passes by....i dont need to see them everyday, once a week, once a month or whatever to know that they are my true friends...but to someone else...i might only be a great friend or true friend if i see them regularly...or whatever...its all in how someone defines love in a friendship or partnership...i guess...

love is simple....because all we yearn for want and need is to be happy...and i think its just a matter of us i dunno...hahahah its complicated....

see what i find interesting is that someone can a really good looking guy...but if the personality and character isnt there...it just falls to shit...but they may not be the best looking or whatever but for whatever reason they touch your heart....game over for all the other guys in this very universe LOL

i feel so SOPPY and retardo writing this...but ive been thinking about love abit...being mad analytical about the whole thing...because im like that...and because...for those that know me i think way too freaking much....hahaha...and also because i am i dunno kinda confusing myself at the moment...its scary dont you think?...leaving yourself vulnerable to someone else...open to so much intense effing feelings...letting ppl close...but in the end its worth the all the risk...right? to find that person thats captured your heart...hahaha....so corrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrnyyyyyyy...but so damn true!!! newhos for the moment i dont want that shit...i am just content with how life is...WOO HOO SINGLEDOM!!! hahaha nothing to worry about...so far LOL

okie dokies....i am getting freaking hungry...

that reminds me i got a story next blog about ring!! LOVE HER!!!

ciao retardos!!

much love

anna inks

it's in his kiss...

kiss me ever so sweetly...

so this sadness wont engulf me...

so that this moment will forever be etched in this heart...

 - Anna Inks

hmmmm such an emo thing to say i know...but i dont mean to be old fashioned or corny or anything...but i still believe that a kiss means alot...doesnt it?? isnt it meant to be meaningful...only shared by ppl that like each other...or have deep feelings for each other...or something like that...it sounds kinda lame but...i guess it means alot to me...a kiss...

i dont mean to be a soppy romantic or anything but the best kisses...seem to just pull you into this moment where nothing else is there...it just feels like it truly is...just you and him....and for those mere seconds it all but consumes you...its like nothing else could ever matter but that moment...at that moment...and the feelings you feel...are so real and your senses are so heightened...if only you could bottle that up....

what i find the most interesting is that after such an awesome kiss...its like addictive you just want to kiss more...you just want a repeat of this emotion or feelings....because it just feels so damned good....(am i right? or am i right? LOL)....you just cant help yourself...at every possible opportunity...you would if you could!! LOL

i have to admit i have had that meaningless kiss on the club dance floor with some random hot guy...with abs of steel...and bootiful eyes....hahahaha...and you get abit of a feelski of those solid arms and toned abs.....so yum.....that was fun dont get me wrong...but as i said it was meaningless...i just didnt see the point of ever doing that again...EVER...it didnt have that same.........OOOOOO MYYYYY...kinda thing...it was just....hmmmm cool...that was cool....hahahaha...that guy was too school for cool...kinda thing...

i've always thought that you can tell how a guy feels...as in really feels about you by the way he kisses....its in his kiss...but as of late...ive just realised...that maybe he's just a damn awesome kisser!!! hahahaha i dunno having only kissed 8 guys...in my life...not very happy about that actually...i dont want to kiss many more...i for one am very selective about these kind of things...hahahaha some guys just have no freakin clue whats so ever...age does not mean that they know better...while others...just damned naturals...maybe that theory is correct...but i dunno...i dont think so...

i think part of what makes a kiss so great...is the anticipation...the mind fuck...hahaha...random but honest...just rings alot of freakin truth...hahaha...just wondering what it would be like....and all that jazz...then again you might be disappointed...but what if you arent...and at times it was so much better than you could have ever bloody invisioned...hahahahaha...this...it happens....hahahahahahahahaha...and no im not going to give you specifics but yeh....it does hahahahahaahahahahaha...just blogging about this just makes me realise how much i miss making out hahahaha MY BAD!!! LOL

i have realised that i really have to keep this short and sweet...before i get myself into some effing trouble!!! hahaha *beams*

KISS LOTS KISS OFTEN!!!

KISS LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER KISSED BEFORE!!!

xo

bananaink

...i am melting...

Ah, summer, what power

you have to make us suffer and like it

- Russel Baker

holey moley its so effing HOT!!! i feel like im melting...or baking or something!!! hahaha here i am in my room fan blasting on my face...we are air conless...its a bit of a bitch...but we can hack it!!! ...ive grabbed a water thingy mabob from the fridge...cuz i think a lil h2o might help...lol...lets hope....dont get me wrong I LOVE summer...the beach...the tans...the endless variety of ice cream...the sexy bods rampant on the street...yes i can admit that i am such a mad pervert at times...i look but i dont touch hahaha

definately does not look like im going to get any sleep tonite....LOL...and i have an early one tomorrow...mondays are notoriously early....was thinking about going for a jog...but at this time of nite...just a lil past midnite...I DONT FREAKIN THINK SO!!! hahahaha maybe i should phone a friend? hahaha maybe i should put a movie on....something so boring it puts me straight to sleep...see if i just lie on the bed...ill just end up staring into space...maybe i should do what my brother did and go downstairs where its all tiled up...its so much cooler...and sleep on one of the couches... so very comfortable couches....hahahaha...this summer thing...we didnt even get eased into it slowly....it was like BAM!!! SUMMER...its so effing HOT!!! LOL

summer how i have waited for you!!! how have i missed you!!

NOW I REALLY MUST GET MY ZZZZZZZZs...my much needed beauty sleep!! LOL

sweet dreams sexyfaces

xo

bananaink

who your daddy? LOL

I gots paid today!!! woot woot!!! *sexy dance* hahahaha

I LOVE MY JOB!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE

know its just a matter of trying not too splurge!!! gotta save mofos LOL

thought that that was preety darn blog worthy...haha...random right!!

partying tonite till the sun comes up!!!

xo

bananaink

...a continuation...

Upon waking...i realised i titled my last entry new beginnings...without explaining why so...

Well one it is a brand new blog...of the many freaking blogs that i have started and secondly...i guess its a start of a new chapter in my life...

hmmmm my ex...my crazy funny beautiful ex...lets call him "rodondo" lol...personal joke...he is wonderful...he is honest...to a fault...he sees the best in people always...he has this fun loving character...everyone loves him...he will make some very lucky girl...very happy one day...at the end of the day...we just werent compatitable...i guess it was a communication thing...i am grateful and feel blessed to have come across and spent time with such a beautiful soul...

life can be such a bitch!!! why be so close to perfect? but then not work out? Im not talking about perfect perfect...im talking about perfect for me...so close but yet so far...it sucks...but ive realised that whoever the lucky bastard is that i end up being with...he'll be perfect for me...and i just have to be patient...(i know right...i am like the most impatient person EVER hahaha...i want everything freaking now!!!)...fuck looking for him...hahaha....im sure one day he'll find me...it'll come when it comes..im letting the cards fall where they fall....hahaha....and along the way im having some damn awesome effing fun!!! hahaha

i  have been doing alot of soul searching...about what i want? what i need? what i want to achieve in life...and its so freaking nice to rediscover ones self...im sorting my shit out..hehe...i had realised that i had not made time to think about things for such a long long lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng time...i have come to accept that what i can control i can control....what i cant just let it freaking go...hahaha...upon writing this that prayer comes to me...

"God grant me the

Serenity

to accept the things 

I cannot change.

Courage

to change the things

I can and

Wisdom

to know the difference."

I'm not particularly religious or anything...but i do have faith that God loves everyone...and im preety sure he has awesone plans for me. Sometimes i wonder how ppl can get through this craziness of life...the ups and downs...without that faith that in the end all will be well...that someone out there has got your back....i dunno how id get through it...see i see gods love through my family, my closest friends...the warmth of the sun...the whisper of the wind...dont mean to get all religious or poetic...or corny or anything...but i just dunno how ppl would do it...there are countless times...where i have really really really really really really really really (you get the point) fucked up...and have been down in the dumps...(ill prolly divulge in future blogs...because it would make for some interesting reading but also nowadays i just laugh about it hehe) but it always seems to become a blessing in disguise...i dunno...i dunno...i dunno...but life itself is a mystery...to be discovered...to be enjoyed....to be lived...if you knew everything that was going to happen...how boring would that be hahaha....

So yeh...whilst ive been rambling ive been looking for the perfect quote about new beginings and how awesome they are....hahahaha cant find shit!!! but will still soldier on...

So yeh i had gotten used to being with someone for such a long time...it was so comfortable...and now being single is so...well let me rectify was so weird...im still so very uncomfortable with certain things...like i still have the reaction of....dont fucking touch me!! hahahaha but as of late...fuck oath ive been having so much freakin fun (as long as they still leave me some personal space)!!  HAHA...not naughty fun...but random ass fun...making random friends...saying random things...being DAMN RANDOM!!! partying dancing laughing talking until the sun comes up!!! hahaha i have to say im having sucha hoot!! LOL its weird not giving a flying shit hahahaha ive come to the realisation that i prolly wont see these ppl again...unless i really wanted to hahaha

ive also realised how extremely blessed i am to be surrounded and supported by such awesome family and friends...see some choices i have made are damn GOLD!!! lol

fuck there are alot of beginning quotes...hahahahhaha....yay! found an interesting one...

He who chooses the begining of the road chooses the place it leads to. It is the means that determines the end.

- Harry Emerson Fosdick

I guess this is my begining...and i am choosing to find happiness...and i have come to realise that happiness comes from within and i guess overflows...dunno if that is the right word...overflows out? or just spreads into all aspects of ones life....such a philosopher i am...an eternal optimist..a dreamer...this is how i choose to live my life...and im smart enough to know...its always a matter of choice!! now that im getting my head into shape...i know i gotta kick my butt into gear....JUST DO IT as nike says...! prepare plan then action!!! hahaha but that is another blogg that ill have to write about another day...

Also just letting you know i am in the progress of fixing things...with zing...how much have i missed her!!! love that chicki!!! love my familia!!

newhos...its such a bOOTIful day out....its a shame to stay in and blogg...

out to live it up!!!!

xo

bananaink