quotes...quotes endless quotes...

Hi there bootiful ppls...
 hmmmmm I guess by now you would have noticed I super duper love quotes...especially the corny ones...and yes I am one of those ppl....that cry waterfall tears during soopy romantic flicks....when romeo kissed juliet....blah blah blah....


quotes I SUPER HEART and found today...


What I wish for my friends and for myself....

This is my wish for you:

Comfort on difficult days,

smiles when sadness intrudes,

rainbows to follow the clouds,

 laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart,

hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see,

friendships to brighten your being, f

aith so that you can believe,

 confidence for when you doubt,

 courage to know yourself,

patience to accept the truth.

Love to complete your life.

- Unknown

truth that resonates...

Love me when I least deserve it,

because that's when I really need it

- Swedish Proverb

(swedish peeps such wise mofos LOVE IT)

and about tears...

There is a sacredness in tears.

They are not the mark of weakness,

but of power.

They speak more eloquently

than ten thousand tongues.

They are messengers of overwhelming grief...

and unspeakable love.

- Washington Irving

Wow i never thought of tears like that...I have always been one to hold back tears...well at least try...TRY BUT FAIL...LOL *beams*....because I think it makes me look so damn weak...but there are times where that is all that you can do...LOVE THIS QUOTE BABY!!! hehe

awww and one of my most favourite love songs of all time.....a classic....SO DAMN AWESOME!!! hehe  dont laugh...but this used to make me cry hahahaha....when i was all heart broken and devoooooo'd HAHAHA...sad but true LOL

xoxo

bannnnnannnnnnnerrrrr

...a continuation...

Upon waking...i realised i titled my last entry new beginnings...without explaining why so...

Well one it is a brand new blog...of the many freaking blogs that i have started and secondly...i guess its a start of a new chapter in my life...

hmmmm my ex...my crazy funny beautiful ex...lets call him "rodondo" lol...personal joke...he is wonderful...he is honest...to a fault...he sees the best in people always...he has this fun loving character...everyone loves him...he will make some very lucky girl...very happy one day...at the end of the day...we just werent compatitable...i guess it was a communication thing...i am grateful and feel blessed to have come across and spent time with such a beautiful soul...

life can be such a bitch!!! why be so close to perfect? but then not work out? Im not talking about perfect perfect...im talking about perfect for me...so close but yet so far...it sucks...but ive realised that whoever the lucky bastard is that i end up being with...he'll be perfect for me...and i just have to be patient...(i know right...i am like the most impatient person EVER hahaha...i want everything freaking now!!!)...fuck looking for him...hahaha....im sure one day he'll find me...it'll come when it comes..im letting the cards fall where they fall....hahaha....and along the way im having some damn awesome effing fun!!! hahaha

i  have been doing alot of soul searching...about what i want? what i need? what i want to achieve in life...and its so freaking nice to rediscover ones self...im sorting my shit out..hehe...i had realised that i had not made time to think about things for such a long long lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng time...i have come to accept that what i can control i can control....what i cant just let it freaking go...hahaha...upon writing this that prayer comes to me...

"God grant me the

Serenity

to accept the things 

I cannot change.

Courage

to change the things

I can and

Wisdom

to know the difference."

I'm not particularly religious or anything...but i do have faith that God loves everyone...and im preety sure he has awesone plans for me. Sometimes i wonder how ppl can get through this craziness of life...the ups and downs...without that faith that in the end all will be well...that someone out there has got your back....i dunno how id get through it...see i see gods love through my family, my closest friends...the warmth of the sun...the whisper of the wind...dont mean to get all religious or poetic...or corny or anything...but i just dunno how ppl would do it...there are countless times...where i have really really really really really really really really (you get the point) fucked up...and have been down in the dumps...(ill prolly divulge in future blogs...because it would make for some interesting reading but also nowadays i just laugh about it hehe) but it always seems to become a blessing in disguise...i dunno...i dunno...i dunno...but life itself is a mystery...to be discovered...to be enjoyed....to be lived...if you knew everything that was going to happen...how boring would that be hahaha....

So yeh...whilst ive been rambling ive been looking for the perfect quote about new beginings and how awesome they are....hahahaha cant find shit!!! but will still soldier on...

So yeh i had gotten used to being with someone for such a long time...it was so comfortable...and now being single is so...well let me rectify was so weird...im still so very uncomfortable with certain things...like i still have the reaction of....dont fucking touch me!! hahahaha but as of late...fuck oath ive been having so much freakin fun (as long as they still leave me some personal space)!!  HAHA...not naughty fun...but random ass fun...making random friends...saying random things...being DAMN RANDOM!!! partying dancing laughing talking until the sun comes up!!! hahaha i have to say im having sucha hoot!! LOL its weird not giving a flying shit hahahaha ive come to the realisation that i prolly wont see these ppl again...unless i really wanted to hahaha

ive also realised how extremely blessed i am to be surrounded and supported by such awesome family and friends...see some choices i have made are damn GOLD!!! lol

fuck there are alot of beginning quotes...hahahahhaha....yay! found an interesting one...

He who chooses the begining of the road chooses the place it leads to. It is the means that determines the end.

- Harry Emerson Fosdick

I guess this is my begining...and i am choosing to find happiness...and i have come to realise that happiness comes from within and i guess overflows...dunno if that is the right word...overflows out? or just spreads into all aspects of ones life....such a philosopher i am...an eternal optimist..a dreamer...this is how i choose to live my life...and im smart enough to know...its always a matter of choice!! now that im getting my head into shape...i know i gotta kick my butt into gear....JUST DO IT as nike says...! prepare plan then action!!! hahaha but that is another blogg that ill have to write about another day...

Also just letting you know i am in the progress of fixing things...with zing...how much have i missed her!!! love that chicki!!! love my familia!!

newhos...its such a bOOTIful day out....its a shame to stay in and blogg...

out to live it up!!!!

xo

bananaink

....to new beginnings...

I have to say that i haven't written a blog in a ka-billion zillion years...so if i go all blog mental on you i apologise in advance...lol...

so weird to be suddently overwhelmed with the desire to put thoughts into words and words into a blog then send it into the abyss of the wide world web....it's odd almost profound how much i have missed blogging...maybe because i had forgotten all about it...being busy with the busyness of life...of work and work and work and work and parties and parties and parties...endless things to do without really thinking about things...maybe its just me getting in touch with my inner thoughts and feelings...maybe i haven't thought about things much until lately...

so much to say so little time...at times so much time...so little to say...haha

well the last time i blogged from memory...i was in love...and all i wrote about was how much i loved him...or how my job was...or some random shit about what was happening in my life...but then again what the f*ck else would i blog about...hahaha...i guess today i feel like blogging about more core things...about life in general...nothing to specific...maybe because i dont have anything or anyone in particular to write about...(well at this stage anyway)....i must explain that i write with a flow...about whatever just pops into this preety little head of mine...so if i confuse you again i apologise...hahaha....because at times i know that i just confuse myself...haha

so life...

life is fan-bloody-tastic....i am healthy...im breathing...i have a roof over my head and food on the table....really not much to complain about...

i was outside on the driveway having smoke (i know smoking is a bad habit...which im hoping to get rid of soon LOL and in no way do i condone smoking!! dont start!!!) looking at the stars and thinking thinking thinking...

my life is great!!

i have awesome relationships with my friends and family, i have a awesome job...i consider my self truly blessed!!

i did have a fight recently with my closest ppl...hmmmmm im considering using their real names...i dunno...should i?? lets just call them ling, zing and ring....hahahahaha....kinda not really with ring or ling...more zing...maybe cuz i was getting my period....but it weird fighting with your closest peeps...i hadnt felt so issolated in such a long time...so alone...zing...gave me tone...that was wat it was about...its more complicated than that...it was wat she said...and then it wasnt just that its all these little tiny things....that just i dunno came to me....and it made me so sad....so bloody freaking sad...and i realised that i can handle alot of things being angry, being frustrated, being bored....but sadness is something that just doesnt go well with me...

i was explainging what had happened to one of my work mates...and she said that this thing that happened shouldnt have happened...its like an unspoken rule kinda thing...and to zing, ling and ring...well to most ppl i just dont like telling anyone wat to do...but come to think about it...how awkward....how can i expect ppl to do things if i dont tell them....like they cant read my freakin mind...but at the same time i felt that they should know better...and i was so hurt and so sad that i couldnt even fathom the words to say...so i just cried....these stoopid waterfall tears....like those silent tears that just dont stop....well ive fixed things with ling and ring....because i missed them so much...and because it was silly...but at the time i couldnt bring myself to speak...and dont get me wrong ppl...i talk all the time....but when it comes to something that is i guess...to close to the heart...not only am i speechless but im nothing short of tears...endless tears....i didnt know one person could cry so much let alone....had no idea where the fuck all that water came from...haha..hmmmm im going to go speak with zing tomorrow cuz i heart her...dunno what ill say...but ill fix things...

at the point of when i was at my saddest of sad....i was wondering what the point of being close to ppl was...wat was the point when all you do is leave yourself vulnerable to hurt? wat was the point when the ppl closest to you are the ppl that hurt you the most? you know it was one of those many moments in life where u question the validility of these things....it makes you wonder if life would be easier if you just didnt let ppl in...but you and i both know that a life like that isnt worth living....life is about...well my perspective on it all...is that life is about cultivating these awesomely crazy friendships where you can share your inner most thoughts and feelings with ppl....be it your friend...your family member...your lover....your life partner...or watever...and be yourself...and they accept you for who you are...the good, the bad and the ugly hahaha...i sure do have ugly moments hahahahaha and you do have to take risks on ppl...risks on things....how boring would it be if you never took risks...not only boring....how fucked up would it be....so if you take a risk on a person, a job, a anything and it doesnt work out....so be it...at least there wouldnt be any regret....you'd learn from it? well lets hope that we would learn from it haha...

wow this wasnt as long as i thought it would be...hahahaha....maybe because its 1am...and my bed is starting to look preety damn warm and inviting....hahahaha

there is heaps i want to blogg about...man i can talk alot of shit....hahaha...but i have a early one tomorrrow...doing who knows whats...hehe...so i shall blab on more then....maybe

toodles

bananaink