i cant sleep...cuz i suck...LOL

Insomnia is a gross feeder. 

It will nourish itself on any kind of thinking,

including thinking about not thinking. 

-Clifton Fadiman

The worst thing in the world is to try to sleep and not to. 

-F. Scott Fitzgerald

O bed! O bed! delicious bed!
That heaven upon earth to the weary head.
~Thomas Hood, Miss Kilmansegg - Her Dream

Dreams are answers to questions

we haven't yet figured out how to ask

The best reason for having dreams

is that in dreams no reasons are necessary. 

-Ashleigh Brilliant

I hate it when I cant sleep...it usually means im going to be dreaming some weird shit...you dont want to know....hahahaha....and im going to wake up late...i dont mind the sleep in so much...but im more of a morning person...i like getting up early...getting use of the whole day...

i love my morning air...the freshness...the coldness of it...i love watching the sunrise...i was wanting to go to the beach....prolly go tomorrow...

see there is something about the water...the sound it makes...the blueness....the deepness of it...the feel of the sand underneath your feet or between your fingertips...hmmmm

imma watching A Love Song for Bobby Long...


don't ask me why...its just on the tv...interesting characters...smoking, drinking, chilling, beautiful disasters....such charming characters...beautiful songs...so soft...

i cant believe how crazy awesome this movie actually is...what their saying...its crazy...its beautiful...so poetic...

Bobby Long: Lawson is not in love with you.
Georgianna: Bobby, I don't think thats any of your damn business.
Bobby Long: I've seen him with a woman that he can't get enough of. A woman that's crawled into every molecule of his being. That consumed his every thought and turned him into a creature of devotion and obsession. I have the scars of that love on my face, have ya told her about that? Have you told her about the difference between true love and a warm bed to pass the time away?
Lawson Pines: Oh cool it man. Don't go after her, I never said I was going anywhere.
Bobby Long: I only speak the truth. The woman deserves to know the truth. And you, you're free to do as you please.
Lawson Pines: Am I, really? Finally free huh?
Bobby Long: I wanna say something on this occasion where I celebrate my love and frienships with one another. Friend, my enemy, I call you out. You, you, you there with a bad thorn in your side. You there, my friend, with a winning air. Who pawned the lie on me when he looked brassly at my shyest secret. With my whole heart under your hammer. That though I loved him for his faults as much as for his good. My friend were an enemy upon stilts with his head in a cunning cloud.
Lawson Pines: Bravo, man. Now why dont you come out and fucking say what you really mean. Does every word out of your mouth have to be in character? Or is that the idea? Just to be anyone but who you really are. You want to tell me that your disappointed in me? Cause maybe im disappointed in you. You know I never asked to write your damn book. Your redemption and my penance, right? Havent I paid? Nine fucking years. I'm sorry. I am sorry all right. I am so fucking sorry.
Bobby Long: It's Dylan Thomas. That's an easy one.

......................

Lawson Pines: Some people reach a place in time where they've gone as far as they can. A place where wives and jobs collide with desire. That which is unknowable and those who remain out of sight. See what it is invisible and you will see what to write. That's how Bobby used to put it. It was the invisible people he wanted to live with. The ones that we walk past everday, the ones we sometimes become. The ones in books who live only in someones mind's eye. He was a man who was destined to go through life and not around it. A man who was sure the shortest path to Heaven was straight through Hell. But the truth of his handicap lay only in a mind both exalted and crippled by too many stories and the path he chose to become one. Bobby Long's tragic flaw was his romance with all that he saw. And I guess if people want to believe in some form of justice, then Bobby Long got his for a song.

just interesting to see how relationships are on screen...showing the craziness of it...its quite interesting...heart renchingly intriguing...quite a moving movie...so damn deep...

...i love this movie...im going to buy it...love the music...love the characters...

funny how i was so not interested in it in the beginning and then it just grew on me...damn it...now i just have to finish watching it...and its nearly 2am...i really should go to sleep....but i wont...haha...

Lawson is dead sexy...hahaha...YUM...nearly as sexy as Pursy Will...but no ones as hot as her!! LOL

Yesterday i had a dream, that i could fly....
 xo
bananerrrrrrrr